Post GMR 2007 - Training continues ..... by Kitten

God sat here with a massive headache after drowning my sorrows last  night and couldn't figure out how to add a post...

I'm dont want public sympathy esp on facebook, just sometimes you type stuff after a few drinks, basically my best friend of the last 25 years was found dead early Monday morning - to say I am in bits is a massive understatement, luckily this comes in waves, but each day it hurts more, and last night I lost it big time, probs the wine helped....

I'll tell you more at a later date, I am heavily involved being the crucial link mediating between her Father & Sister and her Ex & Son due to no communication over the past 2 yrs, her family are going to visit her today in hospital, I've decided against it, maybe I will another day, I really dont know. I've been asked if I would like to speak at the funeral, I so want to, and caroline would be so proud of me but I'm petrified and doubt I could hold it together, I have at least a week to think, maybe Dawn, Russ (Her two other closest friends) & me could do it together and so it between us.... ?

Caroline ran the first HL with me, Martin & Mother H a few years back (Photos on my fb) and also trained on the route with me a few times too, she also trained with Martin & Mother H a good many times a few years ago, HL is going to be very emotional for me, but I will be running in her memory with two of her other closest friends Dawn & Russell.

I wasn't going to do the Santa run on Sunday, just cba with anything tbh, but I am now hoping to be there for Caroline, Dawn & Russ are hopefully signing up and we are just going to run it together for Caz...

Almost everything I do/did was with Caroline, we text/rang/emailed constantly - luckily this has brought her friends together and that is a huge relief and help for me....

Also thank you to our own Russell for being there on msn last night for me and over the last few years... thank you from Kim & Tina too

So today I'm nursing my bad head and missing my run, I know it'd probs have done me good, think I'll go alone or with Alan for a short one tomorrow instead, she used to teach Aerobics for me before her she became pregnant with her Son, he is now 17, Lord knows where those years went, lots of beautiful happy happy smiley memories, ran with her 2 weeks ago, had an amazing weekend, so much laughter, she stayed with me when Alan was away... Her Sister and I have become very close over the years, Caroline was her life too, her Father, her ex, her Son, they are all in bits, it's unbearable but I am being there for them, and am quite strong when I'm around them

I had to let you all know, bit soon but because of Sunday

RIP Caroline xxxx