I can’t believe I’m typing these words but it’s officially the end of my 2013 marathon journey. I’ve had a sports injury specialist and a musculoskeletal person look at my knees and joints in general and the prognosis isn’t good. What started off as a knee problem seems to have transcended to a prone-to-sprain ankle, a cracking hip and a bad knee in the last few weeks. From what I’ve been told, my kneecap is completely in the wrong place, which is caused by the wrong alignment of my hips. This is causing unnecessary strain on the lower part of my knee and I’ve been told if I carry on running without at least two months of physio under my belt then my knee is likely to dislocate or – even worse – cause so much pain that I’ll cause permanent damage to BOTH knees and won’t even be able to run 2 miles again, never mind 26. After the sports injury specialist told me I was mad to try and run a marathon when my joints are so bad because of my Dystonia disability and the musculoskeletal woman told me today that if I started trying to train again for it I could cause my knee serious damage and make the other one go the same way I’ve officially thrown the towel in for this year. I’ve already had to give up one hobby from the problems Dystonia has caused me and the idea of me running this marathon but then beggaring up any further running for the rest of my life absolutely mortified me.
It’s been such a hard decision but I’ve been told it’s the sensible one. It’s been suggested by some people that I should just “do the marathon and be in loads of pain but at least I’ll have done it” but the clincher for me is that I want to be able to run for the rest of my life – whether it’s 2 miles or 10 miles. So hopefully I will get started on my physio within the next five weeks and they’ve said that they could hopefully train the muscles around my knee to try and sort out the problems it has. I find it funny that I have to go BACK to my GP to get another musculoskeletal person to try and sort out my hips and my sprained ankle but at least I’m giving myself a year to hopefully sort it out and then I can take up my deferred place next year. I would have left it to the brink if I could but there’s also a time limit with deferring and I would have hated to just have come two days before the marathon and realize I can’t do it to then lose my place. And if the physio can’t help to the point where I can’t physically run that distance in my life, then either my Mum or my Dad will take the 2014 place. But that’s worst case scenario.
After four long months of intense training and me being so determined to do this, I still can’t believe I’m writing this right now (and crying, yet again). I am so impossibly sad to be deferring my place but I have to think about what my body’s saying to me…apparently…and not listen to my heart. I have to think about the practicalities and remember that the situation I’m in isn’t the end of the world – it’s just bad timing.
I wish you all the best and I’ll keep reading all your blogs. It’s been an emotional and amazing journey and one that I sincerely hope isn’t the end yet.
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