This is getting silly with ups and downs now!!

I went on the treadmill yesterday for 3k and got through it without any major problems or pains but on several occasions my knee felt as if it was going to go again. This left me with mixed feelings and I made the decision to try a road road of about 4 miles that evening, however as soon I as started getting changed my fears came true and the sharp shock pain was back.This happened on 2 occasions getting changed and 1 more walking down the stairs to leave and then a final time in the office. At this point my knee felt very weak and I was concerned enough to cancel the planned run for that evening and basically admit defeat for the run.

I spent the whole evening and today very down agonising on whether it was best to go ahead and maybe limp round or pull out all together. However I have just been for physio again this afternoon and I am now very upbeat about running again and I am going to try doing the 4 mile effort this evening.

As it stands I am running but I keep building myself up only for my knee to let me down again (literally). I hope I get through it tonight unscaythed (spelling mum?) as if I do there will be no turning back, I have also booked in for physio again on Friday to try and prepare me for the race.

At the start I told everyone I would consider my challenge a failure if I stopped to walk but right now I just want to get round more than anything. My challenge was always to run the lot and I will always have that in the back of my mind when I do look back but I will be making sure my knee is right first before I attempt something like this again. Who knows what the future will hold though I may be back to fulfil the dream next year.

As for now my goals have moved a lot and I have been through it emotionally so getting round in any way will be huge