Gabby Logan's Blog by Gabby_Logan

I am nursing a rotten cold. It was so wet and ugly yesterday that when I picked my little boy up from karate he said; “I don’t want you to die mum”. My right eye was like a cascading waterfall of tears, and I am not being melodramatic, okay maybe just a little bit. I was actually reassured by my son's words as we’d had a blazing row before school over him not wanting to brush his teeth (yes it feels and looks ridiculous when you write it down). And you never know how long a six-year-old will bear a grudge like that. So in an attempt to get through my show Live With Gabby (we are on every week day at 11.10am on Channel 5) and be able to carry on being the only parent at home this week, my husband is away, I have been dosing up on Sudafed and I even went to bed having consumed Night Nurse.

The last time I did this 3 years ago I swore that I’d never touch the stuff again, because it left me with such a rotten head the next day that I didn’t feel the benefit of the sleep. This time I tried the tablets and I don’t feel as groggy, but I am wandering round and round in something of a jet lag style haze. I can only imagine that this is a bit how functioning addicts feel. When I read about people who manage to hold down a job and be a parent when they are consuming £100 worth of drugs a day, I am always amazed.

I can hardly work if I have had two glasses of wine the night before. I suppose your norm becomes different and it's how you learn to exist in that drugged up state. I am so keen to be at optimum health all the time that I feel quite low when I get ill. I noticed yesterday (and others probably did too) that I was grumpy and negative, which is not like me. I figured that I must be chemically imbalanced because of the sickness and then the tablets I am taking.

Exercise would help but it's the last thing I actually feel like doing. I had to cancel a session with the amazing Russian trainer Marina today, which is just about the hardest thing to do as I love our sessions. But I think I may keel over if I even look at my trainers. In other news the show is going well and we are getting some great experts and guests. I grew up listening to and reading Anna Raeburn so to have her on as an Agony Aunt last week was such a treat, although she hates the term Agony Aunt. I think I have persuaded her that it's retro and therefore cool. She speaks so much sense, gave wonderful advice and has such vitality and energy. She won’t thank me for saying this, but I want to be like her when I grow up.