Nov2620098:49 a.m.
Santa Run.... & my plans
Hello friends...
Thank you all very much for your kind thoughts and words at this very sad time.
I wanted to inform you that on Sunday I will be running slowly with Carolines closest friends Dawn & Russell, so we can be together, chat and you know just be with each other and Caroline would love that we were helping each other, she would have loved to be with us enjoying it.
Also, Carolines brother-in-law Mike (ironically) is part organiser and so will be there from 5am, and Lynsey his wife (Carolines devoted only Sister who hid behind Caroline all her life) is going to be there with us too, to support us with her two young daughters.
Basically, I don't want lots of sympathy and hugs, (even though I would love and appreciate them so much), I know you all care, it'll just make me worse, I do hope you understand, just doesn't feel right if you know what I mean. I know what a lot of you have been through and you understand my pain, just doesn't feel right me getting lots of sympathy and attention when I am with her Sister, Brother in Law, Neices (Whom she adored) and other really close friends. I need to hold it together but I do hope to meet up and say Hi at some point, I just wanted to put you in the picture knowing I may be distracted and struggling to hide my heartbreak. Give me marks out of 10 next week :)
I know a lot of you have been through this and worse and some say life goes on, I know it must, for me this is completely new territory and I just want to be as close to her friends and family as possible, when I'm at home I'm pretty unable to function, I guess I just need to grieve my own way and I still don't quite believe it, so each day it's hitting me harder
Cba running
Hope you are all well, thanks for understanding and have a great time on Sunday, I hope we all do :) (Caroline ended everything with a smiley face) xxx
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shazzoah 'you have no need to apologise for how your feeling or how you want things to go. Even though people maybe going through things which you feel are worse than what your going through nothing can and should affect what your feelin, acknowledge your feelings own them and allow them to develop as they need to. I'm not to good at writing what I mean but hopefully you will get the sentiment behind this message. My thoughts are with you. x ' added 26th Nov 2009
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Rob_Barber 'So sorry to hear about your loss - life can be so cruel sometimes - as Shaz says, you have to deal with things your own way - you all being together at this event sounds like a really nice idea - a chance maybe to celebrate Caroline's life in a way that you just wouldn't get to do otherwise? Be thinking about you. x' added 26th Nov 2009
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Mick_6 'Hope the day goes goes as well as it can. x' added 26th Nov 2009
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Russell_Nimbus 'Its not a question of who is most deserving. You're my friend and you need hugs so you're DAM WELL GETTING THEM! {{{{{Kitten}}}}} This is exactly where running comes into its own. Go for a run. LIVE. BREATH, FIGHT. Thinking of you, Russ.' added 27th Nov 2009
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andy_bee 'Just seen your recent blogs - terribly sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. You are being a great support to the family, but don't forget that you need support too. Don't worry about showing what you feel (says me, as if I'm any good at it) - it's fine to grieve and celebrate her life at the same time. I will be there on Sunday - so may see you, but if not hope the day goes OK. Andy x' added 27th Nov 2009
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andy_bee 'Just seen your recent blogs - terribly sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. You are being a great support to the family, but don't forget that you need support too. Don't worry about showing what you feel (says me, as if I'm any good at it) - it's fine to grieve and celebrate her life at the same time. I will be there on Sunday - so may see you, but if not hope the day goes OK. Andy x' added 27th Nov 2009
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andy_bee 'Just seen your recent blogs - terribly sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. You are being a great support to the family, but don't forget that you need support too. Don't worry about showing what you feel (says me, as if I'm any good at it) - it's fine to grieve and celebrate her life at the same time. I will be there on Sunday - so may see you, but if not hope the day goes OK. Andy x' added 27th Nov 2009
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Alaistair 'So sorry for the loss of you friend, our thoughts & prayers go to you and her family...' added 27th Nov 2009
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kraftykat 'Wendy, trust me, you are doing great. You will have days when you think you are sort of coming to terms with it all and then others when you are right back at square one. This is natural and to be expected. Just do what you feel is right for you and don't worry what other folk think. Everyone deals with these sort of things differently. Time is a great healer and you will get through this. What you are doing on Sunday is a lovely idea. Hope it all goes OK. Thinking of you >>>>> x' added 27th Nov 2009
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Kitten 'Thank you all so much, and Russ the virtual hug did the trick :) Had a much better day today, probs because I've been with family all afternoon and evening, strange how it helps me massively... May seem odd, but I have brought her nightie home, the one she always wore when she stayed at mine, normally I'd have expected I couldn't go near anything but I got in and hugged the damned thing and it felt great, will whizz it through my washer and will sleep in it soon... It's pink and says "I love my beauty sleep" and she sure did bless her cotton socks! I have started my Eulogy, really want to speak and hold it together but really doubt I can, am in deep conversation convincing myself I can do this for her but admitting if I fail there is no shame :) She certainly wouldnt but would be so proud of me if I did... I love you all and thank you, your comments are so very much appreciated and they help so much xxxxxx ' added 28th Nov 2009
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Kitten 'Btw Russ, I agree and I rang my rb's this morn to get myself out but the pair are slacking and had planned a rest day, must kick there butts back into gear next week xx Andy, thanks for 3 lots of lovely comments ;) xx' added 28th Nov 2009
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laurajehane 'So sorry to hear what you've been going through. There simply are no words. Hopefully see you tomorrow. xx' added 28th Nov 2009
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Russell_Nimbus 'Good luck tomorrow Wendy! I couldn't get Marie to drive me there. We will however be in Manchester centre if you happen to be around later. Let me know on the mob. {{Wendy}}' added 28th Nov 2009
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Johnf 'Kitten, so sorry to hear about your terrible news (and I hope you'll forgive me for sending my sympathy and hugs) You'll all run proud for her on Sunday. Take care.' added 30th Nov 2009
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man_in_the_stand 'Just catching up on the blogs. So sorry to hear about your friend. Our thoughts are with you and her family. Take care and Hugs from the three of us.' added 9th Dec 2009
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