Repeat after me..
Apr2420122:10 p.m.
Never again never again never again! Never!
Why do we put ourselves through this? People keep asking me did I enjoy it? NO! I enjoyed the training, I love running, but towards the end I didn't like the pressure of having to go out for so long. The reason I love running is because I can go out and run- run away from whatever is bothering me, run in the woods, on the road, anywhere, as long as I am moving. No pressure. I feel strong and fit...I feel that if someone was chasing me I could run away!
The week running up to the marathon was no fun. I didn't sleep, I worried I had not done enough. I was a rubbish Mother as I spent hours getting hints and tips on what to eat, what time to get there, and EATING! The day before the marathon I spent at the Excel and then in Stratford shopping, then I had a paddy that I had been shopping all day! I went to bed early but was still awake at 1am only to get up at 5am to have porridge! I honestly wanted to go home.
The run itself I found tricky as there were too many people and I could not run at my natural pace. I got elbowed, jostled and ran a lot on the pavement. The last 6 miles were hell. Really tough and only my mental strength got me through. Then after the race I stiffened up but was not tired at all. Then the crowds getting out of London- and the pain of the steps at the tube station!!!
So why do I find myself preparing to enter the ballot again and searching for other marathons? Do I enjoy torturing myself? Does anyone? That secret part of me that is always saying 'You can do better'.
Somebody shake me! Tell me no! But do it gently as I am still a little fragile, and know that I won't listen to you anyway.
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Comments (10)
Scardoc 'Major congrats! Quick question, I have a blog almost ready to send on the idea that the VLM is getting too big and people who want to "race" it maybe can't. Would you fall into that category? Would VLM be better if there was less people or would it take away from the experience?' added 24th Apr 2012
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LucyMoore31 'This was my first race/marathon. I really am of 2 minds. I started in red pen 9 so had so many people to pass and there was no room to pass. I was also suprised at how narrow some of the roads were. Maybe they could set people of at different times throughout the day? Or even vary the routes as they do at the begining. I don't know what the crowds were like at say blue pen 5? But I know I could have gone faster and I wasted so much energy weaving, saying excuse me, I was told to expect this and there are quieter marathons, but at the end of the day I was running for the charity. But people always want to know your time and it is frustrating going through all that and knowing you could have done a lot better. There were 37000 people there, maybe even 30000 would have been a bit easier.' added 24th Apr 2012
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Scardoc 'I will post my blog. Like you, I am in two minds. The difference between us is that you have done it!! And that, I think (along with the charity element), is the crux of London.' added 24th Apr 2012
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LucyMoore31 'If you were going to do it I would encourage you to put a quick time on your application form, it will open up a debate anyway!' added 24th Apr 2012
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Scardoc 'I hope so! I'd hate to be one of those people in the wrong pens and holding people up. They've got some bad press on the blogs I've read :)' added 24th Apr 2012
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toddingtontrotter 'Well done Lucy. I also found myself pavement hopping a lot from pen 8. My mate tripped on a bottle of water, fell into some bollards and hurt his achilles and his unmentionables. He was on for 4:10 but fell back to 4:50.' added 24th Apr 2012
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LucyMoore31 'trotter, I saw a man running on the pavement and fall literally flat his face. Poor guy fell really hard. I remember thinking for the last 6 or so miles the real danger would be falling as there are so many trip hazards, people pushing, lack of manners not to mention wobbly legs!!!' added 24th Apr 2012
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sallydeamer 'Lucy I loved you blog me never got the hand of these blogs over the last 4 month of being on it but your words hit my heart your thoughts are the same as me I love my running but found the race so much harder would I do it agin christ yes want to take on what I learnt this year and do it better next x x ' added 24th Apr 2012
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LucyMoore31 'Thanks Sally, it's so funny how the mind works, I think we're all crackers to be honest!' added 25th Apr 2012
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Dave_Morgan98 'Like you, I run because I love the training. I only enter 2 or 3 races a year because they are just the end goal of a full training program. I love the variation of workouts that are required for the different events. I didn't mind the long runs, although I did have to be prepare the family that a Sunday was a complete write off as far as me being a Daddy was concerned. I struggled for the final 9 miles of this years VLM as I picked up an injury whilst going really well at 17 miles, but despite having the hellish experience of the final 3 miles in the forefront of my mind . . . will I enter again . . . OH YES !!!' added 25th Apr 2012
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