feeling sorry for myself today. apparently owing to a pulled/strained adductor muscle.

Just before the hill session on tuesday i had an odd feeling sort of at the front of my pelvis, just felt a bit strange, kind of tight, but not painful, so i ddn't think anything of it really, had a good tough hill session, felt fine. Until later on in the evening when the tightness felt more like a twinge, pinching, when i bent over or walked. Was a bit painful the following morning as well but then calmed down during the day. Did a bit of research and discovered it might be a bit of a groin strain, but not enough to merit a trip to the doctors. Then last night it started being quite painful again, also in the side of my thigh, and this morning was pretty bad - struggled to walk to the train station in the morning and walking up the stairs at work was very tough, really sharp pinching that made me wince. So did more internet research - I know self diagnosis is a baad idea but didn't know what else to do. panic panic panic. Why NOW?! with 17 days to go??! some sites i read said 4-6 weeks rest, aargh!! panic panic panic. A colleague found me crying in the loo on the phone to Chris. I don't usually do crying at work. Calmed down, called my GP, explained, lovely receptionist said if i called back after 3pm i could maybe get an emergency evening appointment but she couldn't open the afternoon appointment book until 3pm. Counted the hours, set my alarm, couldn't concentrate on my work. Called back as soon as the clock struck 3 and got an appointment for 7.10. Phew, felt a little better, but still terrified about what the doctor would say.

Turns out my self diagnosis actually wasn't far off and the doc reckons it is groin strain. But said with rest it should heal itself in a week or so. Phew! I was so relieved I cried when he said it, so pathetic. I'm not usually this neurotic but for the past 6 months i've thought of little else, get emotional with excitement thinking about it, every time i'm nearing the end of a long run i think about crossing that london finish line - the thought of after all this training not being able to do that is too overwhelming. It HAS to get better!!!

So no Running sisters tonight - feel very bad as i was meant to be leading it tonight. Feel bad too cos Chris has stayed in with me instead of running with Jack and Mark (tried to persuade him to go but he wouldn't). Jack, Mark and Barbora are coming over for dinner after their run so gonna take it easy, and chill out, think positive, be sensible. No Good Friday run (been really looking forward to it but will go along and watch from the sidelines instead), no final 20 miler this sunday, but I HAVE to be better for the marathon. Even if i crawl it!