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How quickly things can change!
May24201212:36 p.m.
Wow! I can eat!
The last big hurdle I had to get through has been jumped. My tax credits for the children have been sorted out (the ex and I claim for one child all the time instead of 2 children half the time) and they have back dated my payments. Looked at the bank this morning and nearly fainted! Not a massive amount, really, but it means I can get some decent food in for the children next week, and take them clothes shopping at last. Poor things have grown out of pretty much everything!
The thought of regular (Ihope!!) money coming in again, and actually being able to provide for my children how a parent is supposed to provide for them is one hell of a weight off my mind. Hopefully the child benefit situation will be sorted out soon too, and I will get what I am entitled to for the kids. They have been fantastic through this, bless them, but shouldn't have had to in the first place. Hopefully it will have taught them a few things about life and money, and my values will have rubbed off on them a bit.
So now I'm going to work out the weeks eating and ask my new mate at the local shop to box it all up so all I have to do is come down and hand over some cash :). Supporting a local business and not having to work too hard on my shopping list. Win win all round.
It's amazing how things can change and how quickly. Not so long ago I was feeling pretty rock bottom. Life was bleak. Admitting how bleak was the first step, then taking charge of myself again with going for a run was the next. Losing 2.5lbs at weigh in last night was another huge step forward and a big boost to confidence, especially after it going in the wrong direction for so long. And now the money situation has been resolved. Now I just need ot keep on top of everything, and start concentrating a bit more on the business and promoting the SW group. A weekend at head office for training should sort that motivation out :).
I don't think the light at the top of the well has turned into the light at the end of the tunnel just yet, but I feel it's a hole at a 45 degree angle now, and the light is a bit bigger and bit closer. Still not easy to just walk out of, but far more negotiable than vertical walls. A bit like Striding Edge that I transversed last year. Scary as shit, but I did it! And I will conquer this hole too.
Thank you all for being there and listening, and supporting. From those who have know me years, and those who have only been in touch in the last few days. Every comment has really helped. And hopefully soon I will be able to start blogging about the running, the training, the races, and the grand plans I'm now starting to think about again.
After reading about the wondrous exploits from the 10 in 10 runners (10 marathons in 10 days round Lake Windermere), I'm starting to believe the 3 marathons in 3 days along the Jurassic Coast in Dorset and Devon is feasible. It was a plan a long time ago for when I turned 40. Something big (and silly). And I turn 40 next March, the same month the event is held.
Onwards and upwards, dear friends. No-one knows how strong they are until it's really tested, and when you think you've reached your limits, there is still some in reserve you didn't realise you had. Trust me :)
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Shhh.... don't tell anyone....
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It's been a while....
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Comments (3)
jasonnawty 'Really chuffed Kim. Glad things are turning round and so quickly too. keep[ smiling. Love Jay Fatman to Ironman x ' added 24th May 2012
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jenjo ':-) great to read :-)' added 24th May 2012
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Rob_Barber 'I've often heard it said that to truly bounce back you must first hit rock bottom - and it does sound like you've bounced :-) So with Striding Edge done, Crib Goch next? The Snowdon horseshoe really is fantastic ;-)' added 24th May 2012
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