Or being inspired by others. It should, I was always told, come from within you. Your motivating in all aspects of life should not be determined by others but by yourself. Do it yourself, blame no-one when it goes wrong, learn from everything you do wrong but also when you do it right. Be inspired? You maybe always were but we sometimes need a slogan to remind us of what we are made of.
However, I have changed. Maybe with age. Maybe the realisation that time goes by and should we be chasing things as much? Great things have happened, not just on the TV but things people you know do - swimming channels; finishing an Ironman looking good and smiling; standing on a cold windy road waiting to say hello to you.
Also my lad. Every Saturday morning, although he's been on holiday a few times, since May he has volunteered at ParkRun. I have to give him a lift and drop him off early so he can sort the tokens; answer important questions like, "Where is the toilet or what do I do with my barcode?" as well as chat away like he's 14 going on 44. We sometimes get there very early and we talk. I never feel like running it but he always tells me to "man-up and do it" which I usually do. We sometimes cycle there together to spend a bit of extra time with each other.
Getting back into it has been difficult. Back in the day, I could run a 5km in around 22-23 minutes and I was happy with that. My form over the last few months has been way off:
Event Date Gender Overall Time Age Grade South Manchester Parkrun 21/09/2013 135 166 25:46 55.05% South Manchester Parkrun 14/09/2013 113 136 25:37 55.37% South Manchester Parkrun 07/09/2013 113 125 25:07 56.47% South Manchester Parkrun 10/08/2013 109 126 25:51 54.42% South Manchester Parkrun 13/07/2013 115 144 26:33 52.98% South Manchester Parkrun 06/07/2013 142 164 26:02 54.03% South Manchester Parkrun 29/06/2013 113 131 25:23 55.42% South Manchester Parkrun 22/06/2013 135 157 26:00 54.10% South Manchester Parkrun 08/06/2013 150 173 25:54 54.31%
Consistant in many ways but not great. I find the runs harder and I never feel 100 % doing it although I always include my trademark sprint finish to pick up the time and a few places.
I think the problem is the training. I'm not doing any in between so I understand I won't improve. Yesterday's run was better and the first time for a couple of years I actually went below 25 minutes:
Overall Time Age Grade South Manchester Parkrun 28/09/2013 134 151 24:40 57.50%
I must admit I was very pleased. It's down to my lad's encouragement as he marshalls and the Chorlton Runners who paced yesterday - I tried to stay between the 24 and 25 minute pacer although I did get overtaken by the 25 minute pacer in the last 400 meters but fought my way back to beat him in the last 100 meters.
I'll keep trying. I'll keep being inspired.
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